Ever been there? Ever felt yourself singing the right lyrics of this very song from the yesteryears' only to change the words to something similar to my version? Well if you have, than you're welcome to stay around...if you have not, then you should leave because you have not reached the level of crazy that allows you stay around herrr...you wouldn't understand, you just can't...well, not yet anyway.
I wouldn't say feeling this way requires that you: (a) have a stressful job; (b) have a baby on the way, a child or 10; (c) a working mother; (d) a stay at home mother; (e) a single mother working one or many jobs; (f) have a life of many social obligations that almost requires a degree in strategic planning, these things may help...but most likely if you are able to relate and read through the lines of...you are a woman, maybe a slightly to highly hormonal woman.
I don't really consider myself an expert in this stage or for now only because it sounds a lot less like commitment type feeling...let's say this "funk" of life but that's a little bit of where I feel I am at right now.
Somewhere in between beginning this blog a few years and today...I was in different place, I am not so sure what that place was exactly but I think it was a life strongly lived off of crazy baby brain energy and new baby happiness endorphins...but now my life seems to be more ran off lots of caffeine binges (with colors vary from medium brown into black depending on that days tolerance level) and fumes coming from my wine glass and of course happiness endorphins that there but that must be sharing space with my tired life brain. I feel like a life ninja has crept in through my bedroom window and taken my life mojo and here I am left with trying to figure out how to get it back.
Here at the laptop writing board is where I have found myself because one thing that I have found when I am confused about something is, typically talking it through with the person who I would consider to understand me the most because he sees me the most will do the trick in most cases...but in this case he just doesn't get it...his response, "I don't understand what you are talking about, nothing has changed about you from two years ago, if anything I think you're better from where you were then...", not really the wisdom filled response I was searching for but more of the typical husband response and also has no relation/understanding to paragraph #2 but I still love him. You know, when just know that there is something going on with you that even you can't really explain what's different or why you are different to yourself...OK this statement alone should definitely qualify to weed out the normal women who have been reading this blog, who can not relate to the sentence just written on this screen...all you other like minded, been there crazies are welcome to remain on this crazy blog train.
Well that's it and this where I am at this moment, maybe this blog will go back to whatever the purpose was I initially created it for or maybe it's going to manifest into some weird, new kind of normal for me but wherever it goes I am hoping it turns this funk into some kind of direction...purpose...answer...or maybe it will end up being just a bunch of cathartic mindless funk stuff that gets me out of this state of mind I am in right now. At this moment in time I have no blog agenda other than to write about only and all things that inspire me and begin to make my happy brain space start to take over my tired and overwhelmed brain space and if this doesn't work, then who knows what maybe I will try jumping out of a plane...walking on fire...swimming with sharks...either way it'll be an experience worth trying, right? So.Here.We.Go #soherewego
Until then...Ciao all you other relatably crazy ladies!
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